I have a little black book, I carry it everywhere. I take it for granted - it's just always there. If I take it out of my bag during the day, it sits either on my desk or beside me on the bed.
It's my day planner. I've used different brands and tried different formats and configurations over the years, but I've fallen in love with the Moleskine brand. I started using one when I was 15 - I hardly remember what life was like without having my days laid out in front of me.
I lost mine last week.
I turns out I can't live without it.
It's not that I can't remember what I'm doing each day. Each DAY I have covered. I might even be able to keep track of a whole WEEK. But I write things down in the planner that are happening weeks - months! - in advance. I can't synthesize the long-term with the short-term. I know what I should be doing tomorrow, but I can't keep track of what I knew four weeks ago that is NOW coming up tomorrow.
It's driving me nuts. Everything I've supposed to know between now and December I've lost. I can recreate most of it, I'm sure, but it's the not knowing that kills me. I like the security of knowing I KNOW what I'm doing - I feel in control of things. Now I'm all discombobulated.
I didn't anticipate being this unraveled.
I'm using this opportunity to give online calendar tools a try. I've heard great things about having an online calendar, and it's not like I don't spend 16 hours a day with my laptop anyway. But so far I'm frustrated, because it's not what I'm used to. I have to scroll, and I can't write in the margins. Sigh.
On the other hand, if this is my biggest problem I guess my life is going okay.
At least I think it is. I wouldn't know if I'm missing anything!